Just Life

Today was an excellent day. I'm one of those people who is quite lazy, but every now and then I get in the mood to actually do something with my life. Today was one of those days. Basically I did a ton of laundry and organized the linen closet, which made me really happy with myself. I love organizing. I also finally decided to get some exercise, seeing how it was a warmish day. So Teresa and I set off on our bikes for the river. Once we got to the river we found all these wonderful bike trails that could take you all the way to campus. It was really exciting. We decided not to got to campus today but we did decide to try a new way home. That's when our troubles began. We rode for a while until the trail ended and then we rode some more until we came across High Street. Me, being the excellent navigator that I am, knew exactly which way to go and off we went. We rode for quite some time and didn't recognize anything, but I didn't think too much of it, I'm constantly stumbling upon neighborhoods that I've never been through when I bike around the city. After a while I started noticing a lot of student housing and thought it seemed odd, being so far away from campus and all, but on we rode. Finally I realized that we were indeed on campus and that I had forgotten that we crossed High Street to get to the river. So when we came upon High Street the first time I took off in the wrong direction because I thought we were on the other side of the street. Yeah, I pretty much felt like a moron. So we rode all the way back home and were very tired upon returning. But we did manage to get all our exercise in for the week and I enjoyed a fabulous bike ride, so yay for that.

On a more serious note, I am feeling frustrated. I feel like I know exactly what I want to do with my life, or at least the next few years. I have logically thought it out and I have figured out the best solution, the best plan. Why is this a problem? Because apparently God does not always work according to my logic. Apparently He has a better plan that I just don't understand. The question in my mind for the past few weeks is do I go to school or do I go to Turkey? Since I got home from Turkey I have been leaning towards school. It's not that I don't want to go to Turkey, I do very much. It's more that I don't want to go right now and I think going to school first makes more sense. But I just can't get over the feeling that school is not what I'm supposed to be doing. I can't get over the feeling that I'm supposed to go to Turkey, no matter what my logic may be. This is frustrating for me. I like have control, I don't like my life being out of my hands. I have trust issues. No matter how many times I say I trust God, it's still a really hard thing for me to do. So what's going to happen? I honestly don't have a clue.